WEEK 8: SEPTEMBER 2014
It's been such a tough month so far. My feet hurt, my head hurts, I'm not feeling great. I took about a week off of therapy and I can't believe how awful I already feel. This sinus infection is kicking me butt (yes, I FINALLY got the antibiotics). Today I feel like I just can't pull it together. I wanna throw up. I'm dizzy. My feet hurt and my feet and hands keep tingling. I had a couple of really amazing days before all the crap started hitting the wall again. Dang.
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Well, I've officially been off the Gerson therapy for nearly 2 weeks. The sinus infection is still there, my feet still hurt like crazy (especially my right foot) and I'm getting headaches here and there. But, I do have more energy and focus. I am able to have more good days. I will continue to try and eat organic, natural foods, drink the pre-made juices from Costco (they have organic carrot and green juice) and I like oatmeal with honey, peaches and almond slices for breakfast with organic orange juice. I really have had a lot more energy. But today I am tired. Yesterday was a big day...Kevin and I went to the beach with or family and were both baptized together =) Unfortunately, I got a sunburn and it turned to itchy welts on my arms and chest. Darn it. Oh well, I saw this before when my arm got burned in Vegas last month. I will try to be more careful from now on and pray this passes quickly.
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I don't know why I thought it would be a smooth transition back to normal when getting off the therapy. Honestly, I guess I forgot about some of the nastiness of what I was dealing with before I started the therapy. Last night I had never ending diarrhea...I have the best man in the world who would go to the store to get me medicine for it late at night. I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping (too much or not enough). I'm really swollen and last night I had one of the worst bouts of my throat swelling nearly shut that I can even remember ever having before. I was very close to asking Kevin to take me to the emergency room.
Kevin thinks that I should give it a good 2-3 more days before I decide to go back on the Gerson therapy or not. I can't believe how quickly I returned to how bad things used to be. There were good reasons why I chose to work hard and do the therapy. I guess I forgot and part of me was thinking that maybe I was healed enough at this point to be okay without it. It's so inconvenient and difficult. It's impossible to do alone. I really hope that my attorney can get the Workers' Comp Insurance to pay for an assistant to help me...that way I can rest and recover instead of trying to get by and not really resting (which is what you need to do for your body to heal).
I'm disappointed.
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For the last 3 nights I keep getting the worst gastrointestinal issues: tummy cramping, diarrhea and just feeling like I want to vomit and yucky. It occurred to me in the middle of the night that perhaps it has to do more with the antibiotics than me ending the Gerson Therapy. I've been having a lot of trouble with the medication and feeling better. I have a bad sinus infection and the mailing pharmacy morons who just can't seem to get my medication refilled. So, now it takes weeks to get antibiotics, then weeks to figure out that the dr gave me another prescription ti extend it and now it takes weeks to refill. Last time I checked, you just can't take antibiotics in a start/stop fashion. Perhaps that is why this medication is not working at all!
Well, the day is going. I managed to go to the bank and then go walk around Hobby Lobby. I only bought the stickers for the chocolates (wedding refreshments). So that was good. Before I left, after I wrote the above paragraph, I emailed my Dr. Samantha to let her know what was going on and to ask if it was okay to continue taking the same antibiotics in this start/stop fashion. She wrote back and said that I need to go see an ENT because the antibiotics are top of the line and the infection should have cleared by now. That was disappointing to say the least. I feel like she misunderstood but that I should take a few minutes and think about what I was going to say, if anything. In the meanwhile, I called my attorney and his paralegal said she was busy and to call her back after 2 (I really hope that she's still there when I do call) but that she got some reports in...so, maybe she has all the final reports that she needs for me to go to court and request the Worker's Comp Insurance be forced to allow me to see the ENT, which is what I need and have been waiting so long for.
Praying.
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Waking up with a bloody nose...not awesome. I did have some energy to run a few light errands this morning but made my way back to bed. Tired, headaches, sinus pain and a little dizzy.
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Not really much improvement. I have more energy as I've been off the gerson therapy, but my sinuses and throat keep swelling, my face and neck are swelling, my whole body is swelling....up and down and it doesn't seem to matter what I consume or not. It just is. My sinuses are terribly irritated and infected with a lot of blood. I did finally get my antibiotics, but I've decided not to start it just yet. I'm going to wait until I can get the second refill and then take them back to back and finally get rid of this darn infection once and for all. Something has to work.
I did manage a little break from the stress and chaos of my mom. She is beginning to settle and I don't feel so anxious or upset. It's nice. Now I'm feeling refreshed and I think she can lean on me a little bit, but I think I need to be more mindful and keep up my boundaries.
I also have an appointment tomorrow afternoon at the PEACE center at church to apply for MSI. I am hoping that I am able to get covered, find decent doctors, receive decent medical care and maybe, just maybe I can get some real care and have this sinus/mold business resolved. That would be great! I kind of think that the ENT won't see or treat me about that since it's work related and pre-existing. I can only pray and try my best. I should be able to see a dentist which is good cuz I have at least two teeth that I fear are in need of attention. I've never had anything more than a cavity and getting a filling, but I've never had any pain or pressure. Also, my hair is growing really fast lately and I'm concerned my hormones are likely thrown off, probably from the drastic changes of being on/off/on/off of the Gerson Therapy. In any case, I need to be sure I'm stable and I think I may need to get back on the metformin to help regulate blood sugars and hormones back to normal...I hope that does it because its never gone well to get on birth control pills. Those just seem to always make things much worse.
I'm also taking a break from the wedding collecting stuff. Ok, that's not true but Kevin helped me move it all down to the garage. So now it's not up in the living room taking up space and staring at me begging to be addressed...making me feel guilty that I haven't put it together, organized it, stored it, wrapped it, made a sign for it, etc.
Last night I finally was able to get around to practicing making the bouquets we need. It turned out so great! It cost me $19 in calla lilies (which should be cheaper in the winter when they are in season locally), approximately $15 in ribbon and pins and some effort. They look amazing and it was enough to make my bouquet with more flowers than the florist was offering, and I don't need to buy any more ribbon or pins for the final bouquets. I think I may even have enough to make the toss bouquet. And for all of this, the practices and the real bouquets, I think it all costs me about $50. The florist was going to charge me $125 for my bouquet, $75 for Christine's bouquet and then extra for the mother's corsages (about $30 each). While I don't think I can make the mother's corsages, I would like to go to Ralph's and have them make them for about $18 each. Do I know how to save a buck or what? Trust me, every dollar counts and they add up so fast!
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Blah. Finally on my antibiotics but I'm not feeling that much better. I have been on it for 4 days now, I think and I have the last refill, so another 9 or 10 days of antibiotics and I so hope that it gets from of this infection. My face hurts, has a lot of pressure and my sinuses are still bleeding. At least today I seem to have better hand-eye coordination as my spelling isn't all jumbled while typing this up like it was for a good chunk of time. Hard to time without getting frustrated and quitting when what you mean to type if full of errors with the correct letters in the wrong order. Anyway, I have had a little but more energy. This weekend I mustered up enough to organize the kitchen and laundry/utility rooms and then with Kevin's help I got the garage organized. Don't get me wrong, I went through nothing. I packed repetitive unused items and pushed it all neatly against the wall (or up in the rafters)...well, Kevin did all the heavy, hard stuff. I'm so grateful I have him as my support. I would get by without him, but it surely wouldn't be as pleasant or complete.
Now I'm getting some rest before I get started on some laundry. I really need to get the bedding all washed, remade and then wash the delicates (mostly cuz Kevin has to go to work tomorrow and I'm sure he would appreciate some clean clothes to wear). I'm not gonna work on wedding stuff for a few more days.
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All is well. Well, it's just the same but I'm trying my best to have a better attitude and get on with my life. I'm trying to think as clearly as possible so I can make good, helpful decisions in regards to my health. IE: I feel like crap and sometimes it's hard to narrow down what is causing a majority of the issues at the moment, like what kind of headache and how to treat it. Excedrin and humidifier are the current course of action...while I wait for the medication to start doing what it is supposed to do. (LOL)
Anyway, I'm super excited because Kevin is coming home for lunch (which I love but is usual) and then he will get to work from home after lunch. I love this! I know I have to be mindful not to bug him too much, but I love when he is around =) I'm about to get our last load of laundry going (bedding) and it will be so awesome that he can help me put it back on. Imagine having a King size bed...you would need a team to make the bed! Whew, good thin we have only a Queen size. It's manageable and although I could do it on my own, it's faster and easier to do it together.
I think I might want to go to the pool today and get a little light swimming in. Otherwise, I don't have too much else going on. I do need to work on wrapping the napkin around the utensils with the ribbon for the wedding, but that's really all for the day. It should be a good day, but borderline boring. I need this sinus infection gone cuz I'm getting so bored. Maybe that's a good sign. Maybe that means I will be ready to return to school immediately following our wedding in January. I would like that. It would be hard when I have some down days when I'm sick, but it would be productive and I don't have that many classes left to take before earning my degree. That would be so nice to accomplish that goal and maybe even begin my Master's degree in education.
That's the update for now. I hope you have a great day. Apparently today, October 1st, is a very big day as the US Government has shut itself down due to the budgetary issues (moronic elected officials who don't work well together, aren't good with budgets and waste time making unethical deals instead of doing the job their constituents elected them to do...if it were any other job they all would have been fired) and Obamacare starts. I don't know much about it other than I need health care or else I will be fined. I have no money, so I guess it will be free...sounds fine for now, but long term when I'm not always broke and collecting my pension (vs. working) I will not be happy that my hard earned taxes are being wasted this way. I'm not really thrilled about this mandatory health care. Hopefully it will improve things for Americans and the problems that come up will be corrected. Unfortunately, our elected officials can hardly pass laws in a timely manner to make simply decisions. So I don't have high hopes unless it's to increase the taxes and burden on the American people.
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For sure the antibiotics is working. Hallelujah! Finally something of a positive turn around. It's been a while. I have energy, I have improved focus more often, my face doesn't hurt and the headaches are doable. I have so much energy, I am hardly sleeping. Crap. This has happened before. I'm hoping that maybe I just don't need the sleep...doesn't feel like I'm missing it. I tried a new essential oil of Clove in my humidifier today along with the tea tree. So nice! I actually like the smell and notice it more than I thought I would.
I felt so good that I have been back to cooking and cleaning and planning of the wedding. I ordered some goodies for the dancing and photo booth...it's gonna be too fun! I also was watching Food Network after lunch when Kevin went off to work. And this guy who calls himself the Sandwich King made homemade pretzel buns with hot dogs, cheese sauce and bacon bits. Kevin loves pretzels...no, I mean he LOVES pretzels!! I had to give it a whirl. I ran over to Walmart for some sausages to grill and the stuff for the cheese sauce. I spent $20 but bought more than enough for the dinner tonight for us and his parents, have leftovers and even some I never cooked for another day. I also made cauliflower, chicken caesar salad and caramelized onions with mushrooms, It was a busy, fulfilling, yummy afternoon.
I also took my GNLD vitamins today. I think this is my third pack in about 5 days. I don't know if the energy if from those or caused from whatever caused it before I began the Gerson treatment. I think this is doable. We will see. I'm trying to stress out about it. I'm going to use it to my advantage and go dumpster diving tomorrow night with my mom.
A part of my brain, near my left eye just behind feels a little tired. I really don't know what that means cuz my body feels like it could go and go and go and go some more. I even went into the hot tub tonight, twice. It was really quite nice.
Well, I am going to stop this for now. My feet are still sore, actually, this is different from before as they seem to stiffen up the more I am off of them. They hurt so so bad when I first start walking but after a bit it mostly calms down. Still is sore, but tolerable after maybe 10-20 minutes of walking around on them. It's weird and I don't know why. I will keep an eye on it and see if I can notice anything that may be causing it.
Have a great evening!
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Well, I've officially been off the Gerson therapy for nearly 2 weeks. The sinus infection is still there, my feet still hurt like crazy (especially my right foot) and I'm getting headaches here and there. But, I do have more energy and focus. I am able to have more good days. I will continue to try and eat organic, natural foods, drink the pre-made juices from Costco (they have organic carrot and green juice) and I like oatmeal with honey, peaches and almond slices for breakfast with organic orange juice. I really have had a lot more energy. But today I am tired. Yesterday was a big day...Kevin and I went to the beach with or family and were both baptized together =) Unfortunately, I got a sunburn and it turned to itchy welts on my arms and chest. Darn it. Oh well, I saw this before when my arm got burned in Vegas last month. I will try to be more careful from now on and pray this passes quickly.
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I don't know why I thought it would be a smooth transition back to normal when getting off the therapy. Honestly, I guess I forgot about some of the nastiness of what I was dealing with before I started the therapy. Last night I had never ending diarrhea...I have the best man in the world who would go to the store to get me medicine for it late at night. I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping (too much or not enough). I'm really swollen and last night I had one of the worst bouts of my throat swelling nearly shut that I can even remember ever having before. I was very close to asking Kevin to take me to the emergency room.
Kevin thinks that I should give it a good 2-3 more days before I decide to go back on the Gerson therapy or not. I can't believe how quickly I returned to how bad things used to be. There were good reasons why I chose to work hard and do the therapy. I guess I forgot and part of me was thinking that maybe I was healed enough at this point to be okay without it. It's so inconvenient and difficult. It's impossible to do alone. I really hope that my attorney can get the Workers' Comp Insurance to pay for an assistant to help me...that way I can rest and recover instead of trying to get by and not really resting (which is what you need to do for your body to heal).
I'm disappointed.
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For the last 3 nights I keep getting the worst gastrointestinal issues: tummy cramping, diarrhea and just feeling like I want to vomit and yucky. It occurred to me in the middle of the night that perhaps it has to do more with the antibiotics than me ending the Gerson Therapy. I've been having a lot of trouble with the medication and feeling better. I have a bad sinus infection and the mailing pharmacy morons who just can't seem to get my medication refilled. So, now it takes weeks to get antibiotics, then weeks to figure out that the dr gave me another prescription ti extend it and now it takes weeks to refill. Last time I checked, you just can't take antibiotics in a start/stop fashion. Perhaps that is why this medication is not working at all!
Well, the day is going. I managed to go to the bank and then go walk around Hobby Lobby. I only bought the stickers for the chocolates (wedding refreshments). So that was good. Before I left, after I wrote the above paragraph, I emailed my Dr. Samantha to let her know what was going on and to ask if it was okay to continue taking the same antibiotics in this start/stop fashion. She wrote back and said that I need to go see an ENT because the antibiotics are top of the line and the infection should have cleared by now. That was disappointing to say the least. I feel like she misunderstood but that I should take a few minutes and think about what I was going to say, if anything. In the meanwhile, I called my attorney and his paralegal said she was busy and to call her back after 2 (I really hope that she's still there when I do call) but that she got some reports in...so, maybe she has all the final reports that she needs for me to go to court and request the Worker's Comp Insurance be forced to allow me to see the ENT, which is what I need and have been waiting so long for.
Praying.
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Waking up with a bloody nose...not awesome. I did have some energy to run a few light errands this morning but made my way back to bed. Tired, headaches, sinus pain and a little dizzy.
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Not really much improvement. I have more energy as I've been off the gerson therapy, but my sinuses and throat keep swelling, my face and neck are swelling, my whole body is swelling....up and down and it doesn't seem to matter what I consume or not. It just is. My sinuses are terribly irritated and infected with a lot of blood. I did finally get my antibiotics, but I've decided not to start it just yet. I'm going to wait until I can get the second refill and then take them back to back and finally get rid of this darn infection once and for all. Something has to work.
I did manage a little break from the stress and chaos of my mom. She is beginning to settle and I don't feel so anxious or upset. It's nice. Now I'm feeling refreshed and I think she can lean on me a little bit, but I think I need to be more mindful and keep up my boundaries.
I also have an appointment tomorrow afternoon at the PEACE center at church to apply for MSI. I am hoping that I am able to get covered, find decent doctors, receive decent medical care and maybe, just maybe I can get some real care and have this sinus/mold business resolved. That would be great! I kind of think that the ENT won't see or treat me about that since it's work related and pre-existing. I can only pray and try my best. I should be able to see a dentist which is good cuz I have at least two teeth that I fear are in need of attention. I've never had anything more than a cavity and getting a filling, but I've never had any pain or pressure. Also, my hair is growing really fast lately and I'm concerned my hormones are likely thrown off, probably from the drastic changes of being on/off/on/off of the Gerson Therapy. In any case, I need to be sure I'm stable and I think I may need to get back on the metformin to help regulate blood sugars and hormones back to normal...I hope that does it because its never gone well to get on birth control pills. Those just seem to always make things much worse.
I'm also taking a break from the wedding collecting stuff. Ok, that's not true but Kevin helped me move it all down to the garage. So now it's not up in the living room taking up space and staring at me begging to be addressed...making me feel guilty that I haven't put it together, organized it, stored it, wrapped it, made a sign for it, etc.
Last night I finally was able to get around to practicing making the bouquets we need. It turned out so great! It cost me $19 in calla lilies (which should be cheaper in the winter when they are in season locally), approximately $15 in ribbon and pins and some effort. They look amazing and it was enough to make my bouquet with more flowers than the florist was offering, and I don't need to buy any more ribbon or pins for the final bouquets. I think I may even have enough to make the toss bouquet. And for all of this, the practices and the real bouquets, I think it all costs me about $50. The florist was going to charge me $125 for my bouquet, $75 for Christine's bouquet and then extra for the mother's corsages (about $30 each). While I don't think I can make the mother's corsages, I would like to go to Ralph's and have them make them for about $18 each. Do I know how to save a buck or what? Trust me, every dollar counts and they add up so fast!
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Blah. Finally on my antibiotics but I'm not feeling that much better. I have been on it for 4 days now, I think and I have the last refill, so another 9 or 10 days of antibiotics and I so hope that it gets from of this infection. My face hurts, has a lot of pressure and my sinuses are still bleeding. At least today I seem to have better hand-eye coordination as my spelling isn't all jumbled while typing this up like it was for a good chunk of time. Hard to time without getting frustrated and quitting when what you mean to type if full of errors with the correct letters in the wrong order. Anyway, I have had a little but more energy. This weekend I mustered up enough to organize the kitchen and laundry/utility rooms and then with Kevin's help I got the garage organized. Don't get me wrong, I went through nothing. I packed repetitive unused items and pushed it all neatly against the wall (or up in the rafters)...well, Kevin did all the heavy, hard stuff. I'm so grateful I have him as my support. I would get by without him, but it surely wouldn't be as pleasant or complete.
Now I'm getting some rest before I get started on some laundry. I really need to get the bedding all washed, remade and then wash the delicates (mostly cuz Kevin has to go to work tomorrow and I'm sure he would appreciate some clean clothes to wear). I'm not gonna work on wedding stuff for a few more days.
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All is well. Well, it's just the same but I'm trying my best to have a better attitude and get on with my life. I'm trying to think as clearly as possible so I can make good, helpful decisions in regards to my health. IE: I feel like crap and sometimes it's hard to narrow down what is causing a majority of the issues at the moment, like what kind of headache and how to treat it. Excedrin and humidifier are the current course of action...while I wait for the medication to start doing what it is supposed to do. (LOL)
Anyway, I'm super excited because Kevin is coming home for lunch (which I love but is usual) and then he will get to work from home after lunch. I love this! I know I have to be mindful not to bug him too much, but I love when he is around =) I'm about to get our last load of laundry going (bedding) and it will be so awesome that he can help me put it back on. Imagine having a King size bed...you would need a team to make the bed! Whew, good thin we have only a Queen size. It's manageable and although I could do it on my own, it's faster and easier to do it together.
I think I might want to go to the pool today and get a little light swimming in. Otherwise, I don't have too much else going on. I do need to work on wrapping the napkin around the utensils with the ribbon for the wedding, but that's really all for the day. It should be a good day, but borderline boring. I need this sinus infection gone cuz I'm getting so bored. Maybe that's a good sign. Maybe that means I will be ready to return to school immediately following our wedding in January. I would like that. It would be hard when I have some down days when I'm sick, but it would be productive and I don't have that many classes left to take before earning my degree. That would be so nice to accomplish that goal and maybe even begin my Master's degree in education.
That's the update for now. I hope you have a great day. Apparently today, October 1st, is a very big day as the US Government has shut itself down due to the budgetary issues (moronic elected officials who don't work well together, aren't good with budgets and waste time making unethical deals instead of doing the job their constituents elected them to do...if it were any other job they all would have been fired) and Obamacare starts. I don't know much about it other than I need health care or else I will be fined. I have no money, so I guess it will be free...sounds fine for now, but long term when I'm not always broke and collecting my pension (vs. working) I will not be happy that my hard earned taxes are being wasted this way. I'm not really thrilled about this mandatory health care. Hopefully it will improve things for Americans and the problems that come up will be corrected. Unfortunately, our elected officials can hardly pass laws in a timely manner to make simply decisions. So I don't have high hopes unless it's to increase the taxes and burden on the American people.
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For sure the antibiotics is working. Hallelujah! Finally something of a positive turn around. It's been a while. I have energy, I have improved focus more often, my face doesn't hurt and the headaches are doable. I have so much energy, I am hardly sleeping. Crap. This has happened before. I'm hoping that maybe I just don't need the sleep...doesn't feel like I'm missing it. I tried a new essential oil of Clove in my humidifier today along with the tea tree. So nice! I actually like the smell and notice it more than I thought I would.
I felt so good that I have been back to cooking and cleaning and planning of the wedding. I ordered some goodies for the dancing and photo booth...it's gonna be too fun! I also was watching Food Network after lunch when Kevin went off to work. And this guy who calls himself the Sandwich King made homemade pretzel buns with hot dogs, cheese sauce and bacon bits. Kevin loves pretzels...no, I mean he LOVES pretzels!! I had to give it a whirl. I ran over to Walmart for some sausages to grill and the stuff for the cheese sauce. I spent $20 but bought more than enough for the dinner tonight for us and his parents, have leftovers and even some I never cooked for another day. I also made cauliflower, chicken caesar salad and caramelized onions with mushrooms, It was a busy, fulfilling, yummy afternoon.
I also took my GNLD vitamins today. I think this is my third pack in about 5 days. I don't know if the energy if from those or caused from whatever caused it before I began the Gerson treatment. I think this is doable. We will see. I'm trying to stress out about it. I'm going to use it to my advantage and go dumpster diving tomorrow night with my mom.
A part of my brain, near my left eye just behind feels a little tired. I really don't know what that means cuz my body feels like it could go and go and go and go some more. I even went into the hot tub tonight, twice. It was really quite nice.
Well, I am going to stop this for now. My feet are still sore, actually, this is different from before as they seem to stiffen up the more I am off of them. They hurt so so bad when I first start walking but after a bit it mostly calms down. Still is sore, but tolerable after maybe 10-20 minutes of walking around on them. It's weird and I don't know why. I will keep an eye on it and see if I can notice anything that may be causing it.
Have a great evening!
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